Scribbles...

Are Life -defining moments few? Or are there a lot? Sometimes I wonder about it. Sometimes it seems that there are too few of such moments when in reality you desperately need a few more. Or perhaps it is just that such moments do exist: lurking in the oblivion and waiting for You to bump into them. These are perplexing questions with indefinite answers.
So what ARE these Life-defining moments? Hmm... welll I guess like everything else in this world these are also relative. As for me, Life defining moments are those where you get a sneak peak into your very 'raw' self, or moments when you have a revelation, or a vision. It could be a moment of an accident, or it could be moment of serendipity. It might be an obvious observation, or it might be a subtle realisation. It might be a moment of weakness or even a moment of great inner strength. It could be heart-breaking; it could be heart-mending. It could change your life or it could merely help you get a push.Whatever it maybe it is there ever-present in the living of each day.
Maybe we are too busy going about life's daily duties to notice those moments of beauty that lay in the deep dark shadow....no wait why do they have to be in the shadow? Maybe they are not in the shadow...maybe they are right in front of us? Maybe they are so bright that we just mistake them for sun's rays and never take notice? Moments....hmm...that too life-defining...sounds very philosophical, mind-boggling to say the least. But in reality it is a simple thought. It gives you the power, inner power - spiritual or mental- to choose between things, or to make a change, or to start anew, to apologise, to thank, to gaze into the future, to reminisce the old and to accept reality. The source of this power is also you, and the optimists would like to believe that it may lead to your destiny. What I think of destiny is whole other story...and I will tell some other time. But for now let me explain what I mean by 'raw' self.
Your raw- self is the part of you that's most ancient. Not so much your 'soul', but perhaps a little bit of your 'id'. This self of yours is free of pretentions, and not shaped by material desires. It is the part of that you long to know....but the
living of life clouds this self of yours. This is not you, this is YOU. Socrates urged you to know that YOU! when he said 'know thyself'.
Well, I have rambled on and wrote meaningless words just to fill up the page.....the objective is not to preach despite what it seems. It is just a way of self-preservation perhaps. Saying what I want to say may open up new windows for me. Maybe if I am careful enough I could finally find some of my life defining moments and find the courage to walk through 'The Road Not Taken'.