Singing away...

I was an awkward teenager once not too long ago. I had been through the I-am-not-the-outgoing-type so I would sit at home and work on my songwriting. Only I was always far more imaginative than most kids my age, so I not only wrote songs, I tuned them, hummed them, sang them as though I were the all-in-one star. I had almost forgotten about this phase of my life when all of a sudden my songbook landed itself on my lap. And I was instantly reminded of the meticulous devotion with which I used to practice my art.
I was the star singer who would shoot to fame with her debut album entitled “Love in Moonlight”, genre semi- pop and semi soft-rock sometimes flakily countryish. I listed the song titles in the exact order they would appear in the album. And then wrote the songs. I picked songs that I would do a cover on…my favourites included “When you love someone” and “Jolene”. I remember I did an insane amount of singing back then , humming my tunes, my songs, as though I was in the studio of EMI. I loved that star in me. I did fake interviews going in details about the style of my music, the inspiration behind my songwriting (Pain, hurt and longing). Then I took pity on myself as I went through a songwriters’ block and did not write anything for two years (not actually, in my make-belief) for lack of inspiration, even though my first album was a runaway Billboard chart topper. Then two years later I, the singer, resurrected with my second album aptly titled ‘A Bolt From The Blue’- the songs in this album had been written by within a span of three weeks of inspirational and creative outburst. This album was more on the softer side, with more soul and country elements in it. “It was like reinventing myself, the process was highly spiritual”, I explained to others to had beginning to forget my name. More mature, more soul-searching the critics told off me. My fans were hugely excited and this one went straight to the top. And once again I was touring the world with my super talented band.
I have to admit I was inspired by Celine Dion at that point of time. But as I went though the songs I was surprised to discover my conviction about them. I actually wrote those songs from the scratch. And even after so many years, just seeing the words brought back the exact tunes I had assigned them previously. Sure I will admit they weren’t all that exceptional, not all of them. But I think, from an emotionally –driven singer’s point of view a few of them can still be called songs. An example is presented below.


You are a star now- Farah Tasneem Tracy.

You are a star now, shining brightly in the velvet sky.
Inaccessible, you are so far away now.
But just as close to my heart.
I know you cannot hear me ‘cause you are beyond the material world
But I just want to say
I can never anyone else the way I loved you
I gave my heart to your and nothing can tear the rope of our love.

How can I ever forget all the crazy things we did?
My memories are still painfully fresh.
I remember you playing with my hair
I remember us walking in the gentle breeze
Running lazily on the beach, dancing in the moonlight
Dining in the candle light, feeing the music in the air.
All of these memories are fresh in my mind.

Now my phone doesn’t ring up late at night
And I haven’t anybody to hold me when I am scared.
Where can I find the comfort that you gave me?
There’s no one to sing a song in my ear
There’s no one to give me that soft n’ tender kiss

I wish that I become a star like you,
Just to have the pleasure to be with you…again.
I see you in my dreams
That’s how I know you still remember me.
No I cannot start all over again that’s gonna cost too much pain.
I look up in the sky and I feel better knowing
You’re up there, watching me , smiling down on me…